I played guitar today. Everytime I play Avril Lavigne’s songs. She is amazing and she is my root. She was my life. Her songs remind me when I was junior high school and high school. I was young. I was looking for a lovely romance. I was believing someone will find me. I was waiting. I kinda miss the days and I can’t wait winter comes. But I thought I’m still young and I’m still a punk girl. I’d love to be freak at live shows, but also I like to be calm and play acoustic guitar at night. Playing acoustic guitar is the best time in my life. Never get bored and make me relax. And still I love wearing black/red/white stuff, and I love punk stuff.

And there is a reason why I upload this, my dad told my sis and me that our grandpa… is in hospital, I knew he has lung cancer, and he… his life is not last long. He won’t be fine. and he said he doesn’t want a life-support system. I am very sad and I want to sing when his funeral. 

I gotta take picture of him.